Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Three Beautiful Things for today

1) So yesterday I noticed that my leg hair is finally so long that I can feel the breeze blowing it around. I know, it's gross to think about, but it's actually a really funny feeling. It kind of tickles. I like it.

2) My manager gave me a $20 bill and an apology sticky note, complete with happy face. I'm so pleased.

3) Last night I found out about a really cool project PBS is doing. It's called "The Calling" and it is a documentary following students who are planning to be religious leaders in some capacity. They are filming at a Jewish, Catholic, and Muslim seminary, and for Protestant they chose Fuller. So last night was the informational meeting for people who are curious about possibly being subjects. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, nor if I'll ever be a "leader" per se, but for some reason it sounds really appealing to me. Maybe it's just my latent actress who never got her day. But I think it's more that I believe I'm different from your run-of-the-mill pastor type who's all Christianese and vision and evangelism (I wonder how many conversion attempts will be made on the filmmakers?). I don't know who I will be, sure, but I know I'm good at things that people generally consider leadership potential; I know that a few hundred people think my life is interesting enough to read about it on a regular basis. It's almost like an extension of Feminary, you know? Like Feminary Live and In Person. It would be fun, huh?

So I don't know if that's a beautiful thing or what, but it's an opportunity that excites me. I wish they could have been around this past fall, though - what a train wreck that was! But so much drama, all surrounding my questioning of my call. Now I'm in rehab mode but seeking a deeper listening to the movement of God in my life. I want to notice beautiful things so I see where God shows up in my daily life. I want to keep hearing from you when you see something in me - a gift, a passion, even a reticence. You never know where God will work. I think She wants me to go to a deeper level of commitment - not only to Her work and people, but to myself. To finding where I fit in this grand Kingdom scheme. I could say it's a shame it's all taking so long, but in the grand timeline of eternity, I think I'm doing rather well for my age.

Peace, out.

1 comment:

Chrissy said...

I can't wait to watch whatever they come up with.