Friday, September 21, 2007

My new life psalm

73 Quam bonus Israel!
1 Truly, God is good to Israel, *
to those who are pure in heart.
2 But as for me, my feet had nearly slipped; *
I had almost tripped and fallen;
3 Because I envied the proud *
and saw the prosperity of the wicked:
4 For they suffer no pain, *
and their bodies are sleek and sound;
5 In the misfortunes of others they have no share; *
they are not afflicted as others are;
6 Therefore they wear their pride like a necklace *
and wrap their violence about them like a cloak.
7 Their iniquity comes from gross minds, *
and their hearts overflow with wicked thoughts.
8 They scoff and speak maliciously; *
out of their haughtiness they plan oppression.
9 They set their mouths against the heavens, *
and their evil speech runs through the world.
10 And so the people turn to them *
and find in them no fault.
11 They say, "How should God know? *
is there knowledge in the Most High?

12 So then, these are the wicked; *
always at ease, they increase their wealth.
13 In vain have I kept my heart clean, *
and washed my hands in innocence.
14 I have been afflicted all day long, *
and punished every morning.
15 Had I gone on speaking this way, *
I should have betrayed the generation of your children.
16 When I tried to understand these things, *
it was too hard for me;
17 Until I entered the sanctuary of God *
and discerned the end of the wicked.
18 Surely, you set them in slippery places; *
you cast them down in ruin.
19 Oh, how suddenly do they come to destruction, *
come to an end, and perish from terror!
20 Like a dream when one awakens, O Lord, *
when you arise you will make their image vanish.
21 When my mind became embittered, *
I was sorely wounded in my heart.
22 I was stupid and had no understanding; *
I was like a brute beast in your presence.
23 Yet I am always with you; *
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You will guide me by your counsel, *
and afterwards receive me with glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you? *
and having you I desire nothing upon earth.

26 Though my flesh and my heart should waste away, *
God is the strength of my heart and my portion for ever.
27 Truly, those who forsake you will perish; *
you destroy all who are unfaithful.
28 But it is good for me to be near God; *
I have made the Lord GOD my refuge.
29 I will speak of all your works *
in the gates of the city of Zion.

1 comment:

Stasi said...

Here is why I like this psalm: it is about worship, preaching, and depression. It's about me.

vs. 1-9: it seems like everybody else is better off than me. I want to be like those who aren’t sensitive and who don’t mind if they hurt someone. They are strong. I am weak.

vs. 10-12: everybody admires them, even though they hurt them. They are well loved, despite their pride.

vs. 13-14: I’m stupidly trying to do the right thing and I get hurt for it. I am worse off for it! I’m so freaking depressed.

vs. 15: but if I really believe what I’m thinking, I’m going to be a sucky preacher.

vs. 16-20: so I went to worship, and there I found the truth: that the world is upside down, and the liturgy shows us the world as it truly is.

vs. 21-25: all those things I said before, when I was depressed, were ignorant. I only need God’s approval and love. Nothing else is needed for my happiness.

vs. 26-29: no matter how bad things get, my weakness can rest in God’s strength. No matter how bad other people are to me, I can leave them to God, they are in God’s hands. And I can declare the love and protection of my Mother in Heaven – and my preaching won’t suck anymore.