Wednesday, March 29, 2006


Hey, guys, you can pray for me if you do that sort of thing. My stress level has reached epic proportions. I've been on a super-stress ride since about 2 weeks before the quarter ended. There was the week o' papers, then the week o' finals, then the spring "break" during which I had demands on almost every moment of my time (weekends included - I took one day off to go to Universal Studios), and I still have multiple projects hanging over my head before I can feel like I'm in a state of control. Actually this stuff isn't going to go away for at least another month (that's when yet another giant event which I'm part of will happen).

I tried to quit a couple things yesterday - we'll see how that goes over. I really feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown. I'm eating like crazy (and so gaining even more weight and feeling crappy about it), and I have digestive pain. I sleep okay (thanks to pills) but I don't want to get up in the morning. Every day is this blur of obligations and at the end of it I just have to look at another lack of progress.

I've stuck with morning prayer but it's hard. I don't have time to do what I really need, which is a retreat. Saturday is a quiet day at church that I'm going to try to get to, but I'm already behind on my homework so who knows....

Anyway, prayers are much appreciated. I hate these whiny me me me posts. But ya'll seem to care about me, so I'm telling you what's up. Life is hard and I can't get out from under it - stuff just isn't getting done, and that makes me crazy.

Will I ever feel on top of things again?

Am I just feeling what it will be like to be in ministry?

Because I'm not entirely sure I can handle it.


Sarah said...

You are in my prayers!

Stasi said...

Oh, I'm not having any trouble sleeping at all. Like I said, I have pills for that. Last night I slept from 10 pm until 9 this morning. Really not a problem.

It's the daytime that sucks - the daytime when I'm wound up tight all day because of the huge stressing.

That's probably why I sleep so well! I'm living on adrenaline. Geez, it's like when I worked in television, and every day was this blur of activity, and at night you just collapse!

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